i miss getting drunk and talking to you and then going to your place to feel each other's touch. i miss spending nights with you and waking up next to you. i miss us being childish and doing whatever we wanted as if we had the world inside our palms. i miss our hikes and singing together in the car while we took on the road to wherever we wanted. i miss us. but you went too far and without me. you left me ... why? you found a much different path and an entire new world and that world only wanted you, not me. it's been a year since you left. i had to delete pictures of you because i was forgetting who i was. i was losing myself to something we couldn't control. i know you want me to move on. you would have never wanted me to be like this. since your passing, i didn't want to go outside, i gained so much weight and forgot to talk to others properly. i left town and now i'm back. i'm ready. you brought me back and i'm going to enjoy this life even though you're physically not here, i can feel you guiding me. i miss you. you can rest now. i'll live for us.